Self Alliance

Last night I was watching a show about the conception progression. It followed a few couples from pregnancy, to birth, and then to child care. It got me wondering if there were others, like my husband and I, whose insurance company elected not to cover any kind of fertility testing and/or treatment. I wondered if there was something we could do, some kind of aid, for couples wanting to get help for conception without breaking the bank. My google search brought me to a bunch of threads talking about how doctors changed medical codes in order to help their patients, from getting them prescriptions for Clomid to testing sperm and eggs. Some people on the threads called these doctors out and complained they were being unethical because they were changing medical codes in order to help their patients. I wholeheartedly disagree that these doctors were being unethical. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for a little over two years. About a year into it we went to an OBGYN to dis

It's been one week since I signed off from Facebook. I haven't cheated once and, honestly, I haven't had the urge to. Today I wanted to write about affirmation. Depending on how we grew up and who we are, as people, each one of us needs more or less affirmation throughout our days to feel validated. Some rely more heavily on others to validate them, while others rely on themselves to get through the day. The most difficult part is creating that healthy balance between self affirmation and affirmation from the world around us. That's where I've always seemed to struggle. I've always relied on others to validate what I was doing and how I was thinking. Even at 36, I still struggle with needing validation from the outside world. But slowly I'm learning that when it comes to living your life, there is no right answer. Each and every one of us are on our own journeys. We may join up or split from others along our roads. But in the end, all the roads we walk

Today has been the second day in which I haven't checked Facebook. I thought it'd be, both, harder and easier than it has been. Yesterday, for sure, I thought I'd "cheat". I thought I'd have to convince myself of how a little peek wouldn't do much harm. But I didn't have to. I think the hardest thing isn't worrying what others are doing or saying but, instead, trying to reprogram myself to not go on there because of habit or boredom...I guess it ultimately was because of habit and checking constantly made me more depressed and, in general, in a worse mood. Perhaps I didn't realize how much of a slave it had made me until I stepped away. Saturday I immediately began to notice I felt happier and Sunday I felt even better. Up until that point I wondered if I was just imagining it but my husband also told me I seemed a lot happier. It helped that yesterday I was distracted with my mother-in-law flying out to begin her new journey in MN. Even thou

I decided to start a new blog. Well, it's more of a journal. I had another blog on here called Intellection and it was during a time in which it was created for a different purpose. It was mainly created so I could write more often. It worked for a short time but, like many other things, I lost interest and stopped writing. My intentions for this journal are simple. I am going to use it as self exploration. Whether it's a post about my yoga practices or an adventure I had or a terrible day or a terrific day, it's main purpose is for me to explore all aspects of my self so I can one day appreciate and love all of me. Then, and only then, will I be free from many of the insecurities that prohibit me from reaching my full potential. I was just writing to a friend about how I used to have bad OCD. I learned how to redirect that energy into other activities but the one thing I never learned how to do was to not obsess over things. I constantly obsess over social interactions t